This is my fiance, Matthew.
We've been an item since October 13th 2008.
I met him in one of his best friends, front yards. 4hours south of where I was living. We were head over heels for each other just moments after meeting. I knew there was something about him. And of course he was interested in this
'city girl' coming into his
'country world'.
It's funny because he'll still remind me, almost 3 years later.
"You were what I was looking for. I had never seen anyone quite like you from where I was from..."
We fell in love, just like that Taylor Swift song says...
"Do you remember we were sitting there by the water? You put your arm around me for the first time. You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter. You are the best thing that's ever been mine."
&That's
kinda how it went. :}
The rest of the story... and it's a long one!
Well, lets take it back a few months to
July 2008... I started talking to a guy over Myspace, Josh. {Yes that one website that
used to be cool.} became really good friends over about a week. Next thing I knew I was going to go visit him. Started dating. THEN it turned out like every other relationship of mine, it didn't work out!
October 10th 2008, I went to visit this Josh guy
one last time. {I visited him 2 previous times} A long 4 hour drive for
shady kinda guy, but I wanted our 3 months of ups and downs, break ups and him ignoring me, to come to an
end... face to face.
NOTE: I met Matt on Myspace, Just like Josh. Matt was in Josh's "top friends" and I had added him as a gesture of friendship. I was off and on talking to "Matty" {That's what I used to call him, too funny right?!} when I was dating Josh. Only because they were 'friends' and Matt would kinda let me know what was up with life down yonder, because Matt was also friends with Josh's sister, Becca. {And I was friends with her too, by being with Josh} Confused yet?! Matt, Becca and I would all go on MSN Messenger together, webcam & talk. I was having a hard time with Josh ignoring me, and they were the two closest people to him physically.
It was
October 11th 2008, Josh was working. So his sister Becca and I were just going to hang out. Becca was randomly texting her friend Josh. {Different Josh, Obviously} Josh was in a town just 10min down the road. {That's what I meant when I said
'country world' whole lots of nothin'} And they wanted to see eachother, as friends just to say hello. Then she had shut her phone and looked at me and said
"Matty's there... You gotta meet Matty!!"
We arrived in this small town of less than 2,000people. Drove through it, then almost out of it again before Becca pulled over to this house with 4 boys sitting out on the porch. Their names? Josh, Travis, Jeremy & Matty. And they were all the best of friends.
Becca and I walked over, she introduced me. I said Hello. Then being shy, played with my phone... Just standing in front of all these people. {It wasn't really awkward, I just didn't know what to say.}
That was the moment I met Matthew. <3 With his North Carolina Tar Heel hat on, cut off sleeve Iron Maiden shirt, 'boy jeans' and crappy skate shoes. {He tells me to this day...
"I looked like crap that day, we were going to be 'doing work', and I didn't know I was going to meet you, so I didn't dress nice."}
Matt an hour after I first met him, putting on the skinny jeans I gave him.
We hung out for about an hour, I hadn't said much. We scooted over the a park down the road, by that time, Josh was off of work texting me, trying to find out where I was and when I was going to be back. I had told him to drive to us and hang out. And he said
"No." then started ignoring me... then 20min later, texted me something mean... I don't remember what it said. But I got upset, walked away from the boys & Becca. Found a spot to sit on the playground, I settled for the marry-go-round and tried to figure out my next move.
Matt was across the parking lot, still with his friends. He noticed I had left. Then came to talk to me, to see what was wrong. I told him. And I kinda
word vomited. Ha. We were the best of friends online, but
this was my first time speaking to him in person. And I just clung to him as a friend... I needed someone to understand me. I was just sitting on the marry-go-round, spinning. Slowly in a circle.
He told me I was better than that. I can do better than Josh and to not settle for someone who treats me like that. And I said
"Yeah, but you don't know Josh like I know Josh..." He said,
"Maybe not, but I know he shouldn't be treating you like this." It was then time to leave. Matt and Me walked back to the parking lot, I just detached myself from him... opened Becca's door. And I opened my phone, and
didn't know what to do. I just wanted to be
happy. And Josh didn't make me that anymore. I just remember being
so torn. About what? I don't know.
I then looked up, Matt was standing there... looking at me. I gave him a 'pouty lip', I was near tears with frustration. He said
"Awww." and started walking towards me... he got to the car door and said,
"Don't be sad." I looked him in the eyes for the first time and said...
"What do I have to be happy about?" He said...
"A Matty hug will make you feel better!" I said...
"I doubt it..." He said,
"I hear they do pretty magical things." I kinda leaned toward him and he hugged me.
That was when he became my best friend. I turned away... and he said...
"Good bye... see you later." I said,
"See you soon."
The night of
October 12th 2008, which was a Sunday. I was having a another bad day with Josh. After some more ups and downs... he
ditched me!! Josh's mom said,
"Go hang out with Matty. Have a fun night, don't let Josh ruin it!" {She knew Matt & I were
just friends.} So I did.
I texted Matt to ask if he wanted to do something because Josh ditched me and would be gone till 9pm. Matt said
"Sure, I can pick you up." So I reminded him how to get to Josh's house. Then Matty and Me, drove around a town near where he was from. {Biggest town closest to him} Went to Kwik Trip {Gas Station}. Sat and talked. Josh called, asking where I was. Told him I went out with Matt because he ditched me, he got upset. During the phone call, Matt had taken a drink of water and spilt it on the crotch of his jeans, and I was laughing when it happened. Josh asked what was funny and I told him... He said
"What, are you going to wipe it up for him..." I was super pissed he had said something like that! So I played his game. I said
"Yeah Josh..." And left it at that. He hung up on me.
We then went to Taco Bell. Matt talked with some friends, I was texting Becca. Then Josh had called me again
{about 7pm} asking me to go to dinner with him so he could
'make things better'. I said
"No, I promised Matty I would hang out with him until 9pm. And I'm not ditching him like you ditched me." Then he hung up on me. SO then Matt and I went to Matt's work parking lot to sit and talk. Then some guy who
'knew Matt' pulled up with this car that would have had mud tires on it if that was possible. {That's how hick this car was, and btw Matt had no idea who this guy was} He was high or something. He randomly laid down in front of Matt's truck and said...
"Run over me!" We looked at each other like WTF! And then I told Matt to tell him that
'he had to take me home'... {Clever huh?!} and then we rolled on over to one of the parks on the lake, in the town we were in.
We got out, walked to the dock on the lake. And sat there and talked. There were ducks quaking like crazy. And Matt had to really pee, but we juuust got there.
It was about 8:20pm. It was Autumn, so it was a tad chilly. I didn't have a sweatshirt. :/ Matt offered me his a few times. But I took it as wayyy too serious because Josh had never did something that nice for me!! So I didn't want to lead Matt on, even though I knew he knew we were just friends. He's from North Carolina, he's a gentleman... he knows how to treat a lady.
The dock & bench where we sat.
{Took this Nov. 13th 2008-- 1Month Anniversary}
We talked and talked. I was still in love with Josh. But I didn't want to be with him anymore. And I just needed to move on. So we pretty much just talked about that. Matt told me what I deserve. Told me I shouldn't settle for anything less than that. And Josh being the lowest I could stoop to.
Matt somewhere in the talking put his arm across the bench and about 1minute after that, I leaned back knowingly. We consider it,
the first time he put his arm around me. {He's told me now, that was his intentions... as a gesture of him caring about me. But he was too scared to say it or show it.}We kept talking, chatting... anything. I then leaned over to grab my soda, and at the time I had my legs crossed, so it was like bending over with one leg. So... I put my hand on his leg... so I wouldn't tip
into his lap. And I did it unknowingly... but once I realized... I wasn't ashamed... hahaha.
That was when I realized I liked him.
I didn't want to act on it though, because I was hardly out of a relationship! So
I denied it. As just a fling, just a feeling.
Temporary feeling. Any girl can start to like, any charming guy. That's what I wrote it off as. But it was still nice to get attention from a guy without bending over backwards.
We then looked at the time of
8:45pm, and decided to leave. When we got in the truck, I had 3 missed calls and 2 texts. But I didn't feel bad, because I, for just a half hour... got to not worry about
my life. It was a nice break. Josh was being demanding, and it upset me. He wanted me to 'come home' right then. And I didn't want him to control me. So I went to walmart with Matt. We got there. He peed. I peed. I got out, waited for him. {See picture of him in bathroom below, THAT is what he was doing, kept me waitin'} Then we started walking around. Found a mirror and Matt realllly wanted a picture with me. I said
"No..." because I was shy and
super camera shy. But I thought
"This may be the last time I see him, I want to remember it..." and said to myself
"Fuck it." Then we took some pictures together! :}
Matt in the bathroom at Walmart, October 12th 2008.
{Too funny huh!}
Us at Walmart on October 12th 2008. Our first picture together.
Then Becca texted me, saying she really needed to talk to me and wanted me to come home. {It wasn't about Josh.} And so I told her we were at Walmart and she could come here. She said she'd rather me just go there. So I told Matt I needed to go there. On our way there, Metro Station {The Band} was playing in his truck, and a song called "Kelsey" came on. And I replaced the name 'Kelsey' with Matty's name... and legitimately sang it louder than the song played.
When Matt dropped me off, Josh was standing in his front doorway. All we could see was his shadow. {it was kinda like a horror movie scene, lol!} I hopped out of Matt's truck and told him
"GO... Matty, just leave... Go." And Josh was juuust starting to walk towards us then. Matt hit the gas, and took off. {Josh had his skateboard, I was scared he was going to dent up Matt's truck}
Becca came running outside, said
"Kara, get in the car..." Josh said...
"NO, I need to talk to her..." And Becca said ...
"JOSH, GO INSIDE." And then I got in her car... Ironically, went to the same lake... Matt and I just were at. Matt started texting me. Becca was talking about a hard time with her boyfriend she was with. She was crying, I was trying to console her... and there I was, on cloud-9 about Matt!
Well, I told Matt I couldn't talk. Started calming Becca down. Then we went 'home'. {Josh & Becca's house} Josh was waiting outside for me. We sat on the curb and talked. Most awkward conversation to exist. I had to 'make up' with him. He was my only place to stay when I was down there. So I 'made it work'.
The next day was Monday,
October 13th 2008. It was a school day for him. He went to school. This was my last day in town. I wrote Matty a letter....... it was 3 pages... 6 pages counting the backs of the sheets.
I told him he was my best friend, and that I loved him. Then I wrote Josh a letter... my handwriting was about a inch tall, and it was only a page long. I told him I cared about him, I'd miss him... and I'd talk to him soon.
It was then about
1:30pm when I had all my stuff packed in my car. I was ready to make the trek home.
I texted Matt and told him I would be stopping by his work to give him a note, and I could leave it in his truck. He said he got off at 2pm. So I could just give it to him then. SO I did. Drove to his work, waited about 15 minutes. He walked out, all dressed like a cook. hahah. And I handed him the note. He put it on the truck and we kinda talked. He knew I was leaving. Sad for him not knowing the next time he'd see me, if ever.
After about 40minutes, standing, talking... trying to
not think about the reality of me leaving.
I needed to go. Josh was almost off of school. I needed to get out of town, and so did Matt. He didn't need to be questioned, nor did I.
I hugged him goodbye. I was crying my eyes out. I pulled away... did my
'pouty lip'. He said
"No pouty lip!" I laugh/cried and hugged him again. I said
"I don't want to go... I'll miss you too much." he rubbed my back and said...
"Don't cry, we'll see each other again..." I thought the complete opposite of that. Josh's was my only place to stay down here. There was never going to be a next time. Before letting go, I almost pulled away then
I kissed his neck, right by the collar of his shirt. I was going to pull away completely... then he giggled and pulled me in closer... I could feel the heat of his neck on my face.
I knew I made him blush. We separated... and I turned and started walking away. I turned back around to see him still standing there and staring at me leaving... {He's told me that, he was trying to make an ending in his mind. He wanted to
see me go so he'd
just know I wasn't
there anymore.} He gave me
'pouty lips'. And I turned around and started bawling. I walked to my car, and got in... looked up to see him getting in his truck. The tears still didn't stop. I pulled out of the parking lot. He followed.
We pulled up to the stop light, and I could see him in my rear view mirror....... He was wiping
his tears. I was turning Right. He was turning left.
Light turned green. I turned. He turned. I looked in the rear view mirror again... trying to soak in the last time I'd ever see him.
That's day I left my best friend. I felt that I was leaving part of myself behind.
On the 4hour drive home, all I could picture was a sad ending. That's all I believed. That's all that either of us could figure out.
We left it at that.
Of course by the time I got home,
Matt had read my letter. He had said it was the nicest thing anyone had ever said to him. And I was the sweetest girl he had ever met.
We continued talking. Texting everyday. MSN Messenger, as always. Myspace, as always. Nothing had changed, just got better. Except the fact we were 4 hours apart.
Us on MSN Messenger, crying.
I said "I miss you". He said "I miss youu toooo =]" I said "I hate this."
Matt did some digging to try to find a way for me to visit him again. Even if it was for a day. I even told him I'd sleep in my car in the Walmart parking lot.
I missed him so much. His friend Noah & Josh, who are brothers {Yes the Josh I met when I met Matt. No, not my ex. Lol.} offered to let us stay at their apartment, of course we took up the offer. That was
October 16th 2008, a Thursday. Also the day Matt and I started dating. {We consider the 13th our anniversary, because that's the first time I said I loved him. Our first 'kiss'. And just everything revolved around that day.}
October 17th 2008, a Friday. I had drove 4 hours south, again... to see
the love of my life. I met my soulmate. He was my best friend in every sense of the word. And still is.
I visited him 5+ times from that weekend in October
till New Years 2009. A few days after Christmas 2008, we made plans to move in together. We didn't know when
or how... but we knew soon,
and in any way possible. We decided he'd move in with me, at my mom's house. And that's all we knew. He moved in to live with me on
January 13th 2009. {Our 3 Month Anniversary} I fell asleep that night knowing I'd never had to be alone again.
Here we are today, August 4th 2011. Almost
3 years since the day I met him. We were
engaged to be married as of
February 13th 2009. {Our 4 Month Anniversary} And we are
getting hitched this
October 13th of 2011. {Our 3 Year Anniversary}
We've had our ups and we've had our downs. We fell in love at 17yrs old & 19yrs old.
Here we are 3 years later. 20yrs old & 22yrs old.
Our lives have flipped. We've gone through hell, to say the least.
We are still together, more in love than we've ever been. Just trying to find the happiness in life. We know what it is to love someone with your entire heart... and what it is to say you'll die for someone.
I can't wait to marry my best friend. <3
